the post training period kicks in! and just for today, i ate burgerking and currychicken noodles. how Sinful. i thought of using the yi du gong du method to chase away my flu. dontknow whats wrong with me, suddenly while out at bk today, started sneezing..lasted all the way to esplanade and home. I SNEEZED THE WHOLE DAY! DAMNIT. grr, damn irritating! ): think i caught it from ian the dino.

so we went to esplanade library to rent The Glass Menagerie! booked the Screening Room and watched it. heh. fell asleep at certain parts but it was good overall (: understood the synopsis of the book. i think its time to...uh, Read the book!! haha. maybe i'd go watch it again after i read the book. (:

we had school from 8-111am, chi mock test! :D it was alright la, heh. i hope i get a B? hmm. the zong he tian cong made me think of the canoeists. it was about if a person sees another too often, it'd soon see the flaws of the person and the initial gladness to see one would gradually turn to eyesore. however if one only meets up time to time, only the good points wld be revealed. it's compromise and respect that keeps a friendship/relationship going. yeah, so was thinking of the canoeists i meet Everyday. i wonder if one day, this bond will break, everything we built up shatter into pieces. somehow, they're my existence in school. i cant imagine myself without them.

so much laughter, tears of joy, teasings and afterschool activities would be deemed Zero without them.

somehow, it brightens up my day whenever i see them ard sch. that windbreaker unique to us, the smiles, the HELLO! the BOO! the epitome of CJC CANOEING. the integration of the guys&girls team into One reflects our One Passion. i cant believe the girls even got introduced to Bukka...whoops.
haha!

the summary section of the mock test was regarding Happiness. it signifies how happiness is self found and untranslated. the happiness you discover for yourself is Yours Truly. yeah, and thus we shouldnt place an emphasis on being like someonelse. instead, we should find ways to enrich oneselves, only then can we be contented.

i find that so apt, so spellbinding.
everything going on nowadays just revolves around sadness&depression. everyone just wallows in that pool of self pity, of wanting to attain the something else. but hey, what is that Something Else we covet for? is it worth it to achieve that thing, at the opportunity cost of being miserable in the due course of it? are we so sure that we'd gain that Something ultimately at the end? no doubt that at times, i feel that life is unfair, everything is just wrong, theres no one who care. but hey, i try to look at the bright side of things. look around, there ARE the bright sides of things. you might think this is escaping the truth, a kind of denial, but i see it at looking life in another perception.

isnt it evident that whether we're happy or not depends on ourselves? we're the World State Controller of our utopian world. we make the changes, the choices, the way on how we want things to turn out. like BNW, things dont always turn out for the better either. it's how we pull ourselves up, emerge from the pits and reign victorious once again that matters.

why succumb to the devil's call and go against God? there are other healthier ways to vent frustrations, to let it all out. feeling pain to know that one's alive is just an excuse. yeah pain, isnt running 10km emotionally painful? why choose the physical pain instead? to me, i feel that looking towards physical pain doesnt help ease the problem. it just creates more, to the state of surreality. what's real and whats not, everythings just a disillusionment. nothing gets better, just worse.

so isnt it better to turn the situation ard and look at it in a more positive light?
(:

yeah, the Melissa-Kinokuniyaist Theory.
dont be a deviant like Mao!

think i've said too much. but i really have more issues to talk about.
maybe next time! (: